i had a SUPERB day. i feel so victorious right now. i have been trying to get a job more suited to my personal makeup for nearly a year, and it has been difficult. as of late i have been struggling a lot. it's been the buildup from the current job at mcd's. my depression has been bothersome and of course i've been freaked out by the fact that i was struggling also.......which compounded the misery. and wes has been helping me in every little sweet way imaginable. he really is a godsend and he makes me laugh when things are bleak. i love him so much, and i know he loves me even in less than flattering times too. he really has pulled me through this, to the point that i shouldn't be taking credit at all.
so i've been apprehensive, more like TERRIFIED because walmart finally hired me and i haven't felt able to take on this challenge lately. well, after a few days of really trying and working on my stubborn mind, i got myself in decent shape for my first day and it went great. it was just orientation, but i feel so psyched about it that i can't wait to finish my 2 weeks at mcd's and power full steam ahead at walmart. i'm going to work both a little bit until next week.
i'm not going to be self conscious about projecting what the world may be thinking about/sneezing at my little conquest; i am warding off thinking that everyone might look down at me for celebrating this. or for working at walmart period. or for working at mcdonald's. but i don't care, i'm just so darn proud of myself and thankful to wes for helping me get into a positive mindset and get me in there so i could see how much better it is going to be. i went from being a career person and super duper college phenom to a clean slate (by choice) to trying to find a first job. i'm proud of that. then i kept it up when most people would have given up, and i think i let myself get close to being slightly sick again. now i have a boost of energy and positivity and i think it's going to help me. so i'm working on this new challenge even though it's harder for me right now than it normally would be. and i'm proud of that.
thanks out there to eveyone who has given me advice and comforting suggestions and reassurances this whole time.
going to keep putting one foot in front of the other. i'm grateful.
what a funny pic of an excited me.........
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Congrats!
Rah Rah, DeAnne! You've got another cheerleader!
You have the chance to meet a lot of people and spread some light.
Hey, Walmart pays our bills every month! I'm ALL FOR Walmart and Walmart employees...so welcome to the Walmart club and CONGRATS! :0) Can't wait to hear about how it continues to go even after orientation...I know you'll do great and your smile will be contagious!
than you guys SO much! is your hubby a walmart-er ashley? i really think i'm going to like it a lot. and tina, i am floored you're reading my dinky blog when you've got so much going on! your strength is amazing to me right now. and i think god understands if we have to scream sometimes like in your situation with the care breaking down....i hope so anyway. and thank you bethany. i think this job will be quite a bit better for that. and it will at least give me back my light so that i can share it with others! i'm already noticing how much relief i'm feeling from how things are run there.
Yes, my husband started in the store in STL while in college and then transfered to the Walmart DC here in STJ when we got married. In fact, I think he may work with your brother or someone related to you...
yeah, jeff is my little brother:)
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